You think I’m Insecure……….
………Maybe you know exactly what I’m talking about. Perhaps you have prayed since you were a little girl to be a mother, and here you are with kids, doubting you have what it takes to be a good mom. Or maybe you’ve sensed God calling you to serve Him in a way that requires steps of faith, but insecurity has convinced you that you’re not smart enough or gifted enough. Perhaps you have wanted to change jobs for a while and now you have the opportunity to do just that, but you don’t want to go. The unknown is too scary. Although you’ve been miserable, at least the misery is familiar where you are now.?
I desperately wanted to move out of the shadows of my doubts, but all I could do was go through the motions and pray that God would zap me with confidence. I kept hoping it would happen right there in my bathroom, but it didn’t. Doubt and questions continued to criticize me. (excerpt Chapter 1 A Confident Heart by Renee Swope download FREE here.)
Sound familiar? Unfortunatly all too familiar……
I understand what it feels like to live in doubt and insecurity. If only I could see myself how God sees me. I completely relate to the struggles Renee described above. I doubt my ability to home school my kids. When I compare myself to others who have a degree in education, I don’t feel equipped. I find myself insecure in God’s call on my life. Surely the next workshop I teach I will freeze and forget everything I have taught for the past two years. I fear I’m not doing enough for my family, again doubt creeping into my thoughts
I don’t have to live “in the shadows of my doubts,” as Renee describes. It will take work on my part, but learning to walk in the confidence that God has for me wil be worth the journey.